there you go again.

there's only two people i want to talk to right now. but i'm getting bombarded with "how are you" texts. the gesture is sweet, but all i want to do is talk to stephanie.

i need to talk to her.

have you ever had a person you just NEED to talk to? and when you're not talking to them, all you can do is think about talking to them?

well stephanie is that kind of person for me. a best friend. she's not always there, but who is? really? no one is always available. recently it seems i've become more dependent on her for stupid things, but i kind of feel like i'm not as important to my other friends anymore.

and i dont mean to complain. that's not really what i'm getting at. i'm hardly around either, so my friends are bound to get closer to other people. its one of the terrible things about life.

plus i'm really tired of all the shit i have to deal with. again, not complaining. people deal with much worse than i do. i'm just sick of it all.

i spend so much time waiting. it's terrible.

oh and my car works again. woo.